I was going through some of my old backup disks (no not the 8" floppies, you bastards!) I came across my old poem cd backup; something I haven't touched in a decade. A decade you ask? Well, just a few months shy of, because the last thing I wrote was on 9/11/2001. I'd thought I'd share.

A jester laughed today
The only sound that I heard
As giants fell

All I can do is tearlessly cry
As I watch a macabre ticker tape parade
Sweep over the heroes

Screaming, the child inside dies
Never to laugh again
My innocence ash

All thoughts of peace are gone
Torn from the throats
Of a angry people

So I've recently discovered something about myself. Something surprising.

I've been reading fanfic (and writing it to various degrees *cough*) for... let's just say it's been awhile. Okay, okay. Since Xena. Season one to be precise. Since then, there's been an explosion of fanfic out there, coinciding with the internet growing out of its infancy.

Xena, X-Files, ST:V, Babylon 5, Stargate: SG1, Legend of the Seeker, Glee... etc... etc...

What's my point you ask?

I've found that my choice in fanfic is overwhelmingly... non-canon.

I don't read Grey's Anatomy fic, even though I absolutely love GA and Callie/Arizona.

I don't read Santana/Brittany fanfic, even though currently my favorite show on the planet is Glee. Instead I devour Rachel/Quinn. Umm... No pun intended? Grey's Anatomy, South of Nowhere, The L Word, Glee and let's not forget Guiding Light's "attempt" at a lesbian relationship - all of these and more and I just cannot get into reading about their lesbian couples. (In fact I abhor Guiding Light fic and "Otalia" but that's just another issue all-together).

I really can't explain it but I'm happy that while Lesbian characters and couples are slowly becoming more and more visible on the small and big screen, there are even more fandoms out there devoted to pairings that only exist in our wishes and minds.

Ahhh subtext and chemistry.

I wonder how life just happens sometimes.

You pass from childhood to adulthood knowing birthdays and holidays are pieces of bright card-stock with cheery sayings and stuck within the folds is always a check. It's always from one person, say your Grandmother, but it's really from two and once in a while you get a hastily scribbled note on the back that inevitably ends with XOXOXO.

It's more than what your childhood was so you're used to it, if not expecting it with a smile on your face come that time of year.

Then that one person, say your Grandmother, is gone. She's still here on this Earth but her mind isn't Grandmother anymore. She's in a home. Your Dad is busy either working or with this "Lady Friend" of his. You're happy that he's happy but you still worry about your Grandmother who no longer lives with your Dad and who now has strangers taking care of her every need.

Christmas comes - the first where your Grandmother isn't the one sending the card.

And it passes.

Mid-February you get an email from your Dad asking for your mailing address because he forgot it. You give it to him in a reply with a little smiley at the end even though you know that he never really knew it.

A couple more weeks pass and you get a small plain white envelope. You know the kind and you wonder at the difference between small business envelopes and the usual thicker envelopes that come with cards.

You stare for a moment at the different post-mark and know he sent it from his "Lady Friend's" house... or rather her daughter's house since she lives in the Northern part of the state and her daughter lives in Phoenix. You've heard him slip up and call her "his" daughter right in front of you the last time you visited - the time you came down because your Grandmother broke her hip and it might be the last time you see her before she dies because she's slipping faster. So you stare at the envelope and you open it.

For once there's no card, just a check folded in half for a larger amount than usual.

No XOXOXO even this time, just a scrawled "Sorry" on the memo line.


And you wonder how life just happens sometimes.

I just had a very scary, idle thought.

Does writing a sex scene mean that writer is having sex with every single one of their readers?

Does this make me a sl*t? Should I be scared that I might have the fanfic equivalency of an STD? Does this also mean that I'm in a long-term relationship with those other readers who have read the same fanfics that I have time and time again?

Yes, I have an odd mind.

Ok, so it's been awhile. Let me just get the bad news out of the way. Due to REALLY CRAPPY circumstances I lost all my "A Diamond in the Rough" work. All of it. Yes, it was backed up. Lost that too. The tale is too traumatic to me pass on but suffice it to say that I can't continue... all that work is gone and there was a LOT.

Anyways, that wasn't what this post was supposed to be about. See, I've been reading lots of fanfic lately, including Glee and have come across something that I just don't understand.

F/F fanfic with a female character having a... penis. Sometimes all the time, sometimes just a few days out of the month.

The thing is, why are they posted on femslash journals? I don't have a thing against penis (other than having no interest in them) but for some odd reason the female Glee characters are running around with them. A LOT.

Why Glee? What is it about Rachel, Brittany, Santana and Quinn that makes someone want to strap a male member on... without actually strapping one on? Why?

They want to write a genderbending fic? Go for it! I salute you! But I don't see Lost Girl fic or BtVS fic with Willow or Bo running around with peni (plural? Hmmmm) on the fanfic forums (and I'd rather not but again... personal preference) but there's at least one or two a week from the Glee fan population.

Just a bit of a mental conundrum that's been running around in my head for awhile.

Turns out I have to leave the state for a few weeks. So don't look for any Diamond chapters on Fridays. I'll see what I can do, but family emergencies tend to be more important than fanfic. I know right?! Crazy world.

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Title: A Diamond in the Rough
Author: Silk
Fandom/Pairing: AU X-Men (Comic-verse), Emma Frost/OC Femslash
Disclaimers: Marvel & its characters aren't mine. Angela is mine. Anyone who is familiar with the Marvel-verse knows there are many alternate Earths and this is my version. Beta'd by Whedonist (1shinyboat) Thank you for the kick in the ass. Ratings will go up to NC17/M. Any special disclaimers will be posted with that chapter.

Please don't forget to review. Thank you!

Chapters 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7

( Chapter 8 )

Title: X-Men: 7 Deadly Prompts - Lust
Author: SIlk
Fandom/Pairing: X-Men - Emma/Angela
Disclaimers: Emma and the X-Men are not mine. Angela is. Femslash!

This is really short in comparison to the others. meh...
Two Prompts left!

/greed -
/sloth -

( The Sin of Pride )

Title: X-Men: 7 Deadly Prompts - Lust
Author: SIlk
Fandom/Pairing: X-Men - Emma/Angela
Disclaimers: Emma and the X-Men are not mine. Angela is. Femslash!

7 Deadly Sins:
/ envy - wkgreen   -torture scott with Emma/Angela's first kiss. Done!
/ gluttony - chakayoh  Scott pouts because no one likes him anymore, so he gets mega-fat on Ben & Jerry's! Done!
/ greed -
/ lust - rivasilvercrown   Angela, given her emphatic nature, feels the consequences of living on a house full of teenagers. Done!
/ pride - mayireadtoday   Angela's still learning how to be proud she's a mutant but that's ok because Emma's proud enough for both of them. Done!
/ sloth -
/ wrath - uhimighthave   Wrath: Angela gets pissed when she overhears some students/teachers making rude comments about Emma. Done!

( The Sin of Lust )

More prompts would be lovely :)  The three  TWO that are complete are below. Follow the link!

7 Deadly Sins:
/ envy - wkgreen  -torture scott with Emma/Angela's first kiss. Done!
/ gluttony - chakayoh Scott pouts because no one likes him anymore, so he gets mega-fat on Ben & Jerry's!Done!
/ greed -
/ lust - rivasilvercrown  Angela, given her emphatic nature, feels the consequences of living on a house full of teenagers Done!
/ pride - mayireadtoday  Angela's still learning how to be proud she's a mutant but that's ok because Emma's proud enough for both of them.
/ sloth -
/ wrath - uhimighthave  Wrath: Angela gets pissed when she overhears some students/teachers making rude comments about Emma. Done!

( The Sin of Envy )

( The Sin of Gluttony )

( The Sin of Wrath )

So, I know I don't have many followers, but geonncannon put up an awesome idea and I asked if he minded if I stole it (and changed it a little). Since he stole it from shonn it was ok with him. heh.

Here's the deal. There are 7 Deadly Sins. Pick one (One not taken already!) and add one or two prompts to it. ALL of the Deadly Sins will be for Emma/Angela (my AU Diamond X-men-verse).

So, it's first come, first served. In the comment, list the Sin and the added prompt (has to be femslash orientated. IE... no having sex with Scott!).

Size will probably be longer than a drabble, since I dislike drabbling and don't have any tissues.


7 Deadly Sins:
/ envy - wkgreen  -torture scott with Emma/Angela's first kiss. Done!
/ gluttony - chakayoh Scott pouts because no one likes him anymore, so he gets mega-fat on Ben & Jerry's!Done!
/ greed -
/ lust -
/ pride - mayireadtoday  Angela's still learning how to be proud she's a mutant but that's ok because Emma's proud enough for both of them.
/ sloth -
/ wrath - uhimighthave  Wrath: Angela gets pissed when she overhears some students/teachers making rude comments about Emma. Done!

Title: A Diamond in the Rough
Author: Silk
Fandom/Pairing: AU X-Men (Comic-verse), Emma Frost/OC Femslash
Disclaimers: Marvel & its characters aren't mine. The Original Character is mine however. I don't usually approve of disclaimers. Since books don't have them why should I? Anyone who is familiar with the Marvel-verse knows there are many alternate Earths and this is my version. Beta'd by Whedonist (1shinyboat) Thank you for the kick in the ass. Ratings will go up to NC17/M. Any special disclaimers will be posted with that chapter.

Chapters 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6

Please don't forget to review. I’d love to hear from new people as well as regulars. Thank you!

( Chapter 7 )

 I'm seriously considering posting "Diamond" early this week and then again on Friday, per my usual, since I'm actually ahead on chapters (Half-way done with 9)

I just had a funny thought go through my head of the following commercial and me asking people to bribe me to post early. But... since I really don't have more than 10 readers (OK, 11!) it's really not worth the effort of hiring the kid :P

Title: A Diamond in the Rough
Author: Silk
Fandom/Pairing: AU X-Men (Comic-verse), Emma Frost/OC Femslash
Disclaimers: Marvel & its characters aren't mine. The Original Character is mine however. I don't usually approve of disclaimers. Since books don't have them why should I? Anyone who is familiar with the Marvel-verse knows there are many alternate Earths and this is my version. Beta'd by Whedonist (1shinyboat ) Thank you for the kick in the ass. Ratings will go up to NC17/M. Any special disclaimers will be posted with that chapter.

Please don't forget to review. Thank you!

Chapters 1, 2, 3, 4, 5


( Chapter 6 )

Title: A Diamond in the Rough
Author: Silk
Fandom/Pairing: AU X-Men (Comic-verse), Emma Frost/OC Femslash
Disclaimers: Marvel & its characters aren't mine. The Original Character is mine however. I don't usually approve of disclaimers. Since books don't have them why should I? Anyone who is familiar with the Marvel-verse knows there are many alternate Earths and this is my version; in other words some of the history and events are DIFFERENT. Beta'd by Whedonist (1shinyboat ) Thank you for the kick in the ass. Ratings will go up to NC17/M.

HAPPY FRIDAY! Please don't forget to review. Thank you!

Chapters 1, 2, 3, 4


( Chapter 5 )

Title: A Diamond in the Rough
Author: Silk
Email: katiepult@gmail.com
Fandom/Pairing: AU X-Men (Comic-verse), Emma Frost/OC Femslash
Disclaimers: Marvel & its characters aren't mine. The Original Character is mine however. I don't usually approve of disclaimers. Since books don't have them why should I? Anyone who is familiar with the Marvel-verse knows there are many alternate Earths and this is my version (so in response to Scott's blindness, no he was not blinded in the mainstream universe, but he was in mine. Many things are and will be different because logically if this was in the same universe, Scott and Emma would be a couple soon.) Beta'd by Whedonist (1shinyboat ) Thank you for the kick in the ass. Ratings will go up to NC17/M. Any special disclaimers will be posted with that chapter.

Please don't forget to review. Thank you!

Chapters 1, 2, 3


( Chapter 4 )

So, I've been on a reading tear lately. X:Men femslash to be exact. While I know and love the works of Princess Alexandria and Nike-Ravus, (aka Alsike), I'm looking for some other good reads. Preferably long fics and not fics surrounding the students (There's way too much Jubilee out there. /shudder). Unfortunately the xmen ff site isn't online anymore and everything else is so scattered about. Ugh.

Any suggestions?

Title: A Diamond in the Rough
Author: Silk
Email: katiepult@gmail.com
Fandom/Pairing: AU X-Men (Comic-verse), Emma Frost/OC Femslash
Disclaimers: Marvel & its characters aren't mine. The Original Character is mine however. I don't usually approve of disclaimers. Since books don't have them why should I? Anyone who is familiar with the Marvel-verse knows there are many alternate Earths and this is my version. Beta'd by Whedonist (1shinyboat ) Thank you for the kick in the ass. Ratings will go up to NC17/M. Any special disclaimers will be posted with that chapter.

Please don't forget to review. Thank you!

Paragraphs bracketed by // denote a flashback scene.

Chapters 1, 2,

( Chapter 3 )

Title: A Diamond in the Rough
Author: Silk
Email: katiepult@gmail.com
Fandom/Pairing: AU X-Men (Comic-verse), Emma Frost/OC Femslash
Disclaimers: Marvel & its characters aren't mine. The Original Character is mine however. I don't usually approve of disclaimers. Since books don't have them why should I?

Anyone who is familiar with the Marvel-verse knows there are many alternate Earths and this is my version. Beta'd by Whedonist (1shinyboat )- Thank you for the kick in the ass. Ratings will go up to NC17. Any special disclaimers will be posted with that chapter.
Chapter 1


( Chapter 2 )

 

Let me point out that I know I'm not the world's best writer, but that I'd also like to think I'm not the worst. I'd also like to think that I'm pretty straight-forward when it comes to fanfic and what I like and don't like to read. But something has been bothering me lately... something dire!

BAD FANFIC!

No seriously, it DOES exist and I just finished reading a Glee Rachel/Quinn fic that I REALLY, REALLY want to comment on and post "Umm... this sucks. Please delete your post. TYVM". Of course I won't, because I'd rather not start a fight or really hurt someone's feelings, but I thought about it; for about five minutes and counting now. And even though I do PM people with constructive criticism on occasion, I'd never post anything publicly.

"If you don't have anything nice to say... yadda yadda"

Thoughts? Comments? Ask me to delete my comment in retribution? :P

Title: A Diamond in the Rough
Author: Silk
Email: katiepult@gmail.com
Fandom/Pairing: AU X-Men (Comic-verse), Emma Frost/OC Femslash
Disclaimers: Marvel & its characters aren't mine. The Original Character is mine however. I don't usually approve of disclaimers. Since books don't have them why should I?


Anyone who is familiar with the Marvel-verse knows there are many alternate Earths and this is my version. Beta'd by Whedonist - Thank you for the kick in the ass. Ratings will go up to NC17 but those chapters will be linked and posted onto my LJ. Any special disclaimers will be posted with that chapter.

( Chapter 1 )

Yes, I'm writing again, but it's not Nikki & Nora. Instead I'm writing an X-Men AU femslash story and need a hardcore grammar/tense nazi to keep me in line. I would ask my past Beta's but it's been so long that I don't want to impose.

If you're SERIOUSLY interested shoot me an email: katiepult@gmail.com

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Irony.

Let's discuss it.

We cry foul when corporations, government or the military look at gay, bi or lesbians and say we aren't good enough because of who we have sex with. We rant and rave in response saying that what happens behind closed doors is none of anyone's business.

I agree. I'm a lesbian after all and have been for years.

But then here comes the irony.

What about celebrities? There's a huge population of people that want to know everything about them, as if they're their best friends. Where have they been spotted lately? Who were they with? What were they doing? And being the sexual beings that we are, they also want to know who they're having sex with.

They're just as bad as those right-wing naysayers that try to restrict our freedoms and take away our equality because of who we love.

You say they're not the same?

Bullhookey.

We're in love with the characters they play on tv/movies/stage, or the wild persona they reveal as they take the stage at a concert. Some people take that love of the fictional character that's being portrayed and put their attention to fanfic or art, etc... I have no problem with that, it's a fictional character (although lately the number of authors who DO have a problem with people playing in their creative playground has increased, but that's not what this rant is about)  after all and not a real person. There are no hurt feelings or hidden agendas with a fictional character.

To me, it doesn't matter that they're a celebrity. Their privacy should be as sacrosanct as the next lesbian or gay man.

I recently saw a tweet by ChristinTello  who asked, "If you had pick would want to never have to pay for a meal or that every person you meet that is gay comes out to you."

It was a great question, but to me, a woman who grew up in the 80's, it had an easy answer. @katiepult replies, "@christintello the first. I wouldn't want to be responsible for others coming out. It should be a gift that they can share with me."

It seems such an easy answer to me. I cannot condone a government that will not stand up for my equality and my right to privacy. I cannot condone a society's "need" to know another person's sexual preference.

So there's the irony, at least to me. I don't know if it's clear enough, I tend to be scatterbrained and go off in all directions. I know that certain friends I have love RPF (real person fiction), but this isn't to anyone on my f-list. It's actually more of a reaction to a tweet that an LotS posted and was shown here on LJ, that blew my mind when I saw the author's comment to it.

I forgot to post this here (it's been an odd week for me).

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